January 2, 2012
It was the best of years, it was the worst of years. It was neither. Barring what difficulties I experienced, it was still a wonderful year. I was doing my life’s work, I had a roof over my head, food to eat, kitties to love, amazing courses to take, friends who stood by me, and I didn’t lose weight, but I didn’t gain any either. I experienced deaths and I experienced life.
I’ve got a new calendar hanging on my wall and its clean empty boxes are calling out to me. I want to fill them up at the same time I want to keep them clean. To have an uncomplicated life seems so enticing and that seems to only be to leave empty spaces in my days….. something I can’t quite conceive of. There wasn’t much empty space in 2011. So much studying, so much reading, so much writing of papers, so much ministry to learn. I left out writing for fun and my blog suffered. When it came to posting a blog or journaling, I fell into neglect, as that didn’t have a deadline, didn’t need a grade, seemed to fall to the bottom of my list day after day after day. I would love to say that will change in 2012, but I’m not much of a resolution maker. I never have been. I tend to make my resolutions throughout the year, not on January 1st at all. Maybe there’s more luck for me that way, or should I say more resolution. It was April when I decided to go back to school and I did that. It was August when I decided to sell my car and I’ve tried that. It was June when I began walking and sometimes running for exercise and I did that. January doesn’t hold the pull for me that it seems to for others.
There is however a brand new year, a year filled with possibility of what can be, what may come, what I might do with what does come. That is the fresh clean look my calendar brings to mind. The possibility that my unwanted habits will fall away and new wanted ones will replace them. It’s exciting. That’s the part of January 1st that is thrilling for me, that feeling of anticipation that so much good will come. A year can be like a life. We begin it anew, filled with the energy and excitement of youth, feeling anything is possible and we progress through the year, as through life, resisting it, feeling the disappointment, suffering, grieving, recovering, delighting, enthralling, celebrating and at the end, rejoicing, appreciating, experiencing unending gratefulness.
A new year is upon us. So much possibility to be had. May you have it. May you revel in it.
May you have a magnificent, remarkable new year.
From my little piece of Mayberry,